It’s been such a hard emotional mentally challenged yet sweet and awesome week and weekend for me.
Having my brother coming back from U of Oregon for a week was a great thing. However, he came back for our grandfather’s funeral. This is bitter-sweet.
Knowing my mom was sent to the hospital by the ambulance and the fact of unknown of why she was in hospital when I was work scared me because I was not able to reach her. But talking to the doctor about my mother was okay after I got there made me feel a lot better. This is bitter-sweet.
From what I experienced about how I was so afraid of losing her to knowing that she is going to make it through let me realize how much I love my mother and cannot afford to lose her yet. This is bitter-sweet.
Getting stuck in the traffic from Santa Ana to Van Nuys for about 2.5 hours while listening to my little pink ipod nano, out of four hundred and eighty four songs I own in my ipod, God arranged to play my two favorite worship songs and have my mentor to call me to see how I was doing at the same time. He knew that I needed Him at that moment as I was going through all these and trying to process my emotions. Telling God that “God! You have gotta be kidding me!” that I was just so in awe of what He has done for me in my life so far. This is bitter-sweet.
Going to Winter Youth Retreat as a youth leader and knowing that I would not get enough rest for the upcoming week for work discouraged me and felt a little dragged from the retreat. But God is good! He helped me, and I did have a good time with the youth, especially the girls. Realizing that God did some AMAZING work in their lives this weekend encouraged me to want more of good relationships and friendships with them, and it wasn’t a drag anymore. This is not just bitter-sweet, but it’s beyond sweet!!!
Going to my grandfather’s funeral and being able to play my sweet guitar for his funeral in front of my relatives, and my family was such a privilege. This is bitter-sweet.
So much to take in, so much to sink in, and so much to process and digest within a week. But God was with me, is with me, and will be with me. God is so faithful. He is beyond more than anymore can ever imagine!
” Do you not know? Have you not heard?
The Lord is everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom.
He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak.
Even youths grow tired and weary and young men stumble and fall;
But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength.
They will roar on wings like eagles;
They will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.”
- Isaiah 40:28-31